Thursday, December 9, 2010
Circle of Friends..errr Life
This week's Mama Kat's Writing Assignment is write a post inspired by one of the words given. I chose the words 'bold' and 'angsty'.
Ok, so why do certain people come into our lives, and then poof, just like that, they are gone?!
I have this belief that every person that we meet in our lives usually fills some kind of role in the bigger picture of our lives. Finding that role can be tricky and sometimes downright impossible. It's nice thinking that every person is helping us along our journey through life. We are all helping each other. Right? I certainly want to believe that I can be instrumental in someone's life somehow. Don't we all want to be useful? Perhaps 'useful' isn't the right word. I hope you understand what I mean... This is turning out to be a very difficult post to write.
I met someone early last week and today, about a week later, they are entirely out of my life. I think it's kind of sad. I mean, what purpose did he fill in my life? Nothing at all? I don't know... I've been trying to figure out what having him in my life for a brief 8 days taught me...
Is it simply the circle of friends or rather the circle of life?
Yesterday in the same 2 minutes, this same person de-friended me on Facebook and a new person friended me. So if it was such a short lived friendship, why on earth am I slightly pissed that this person de-friended me? Honestly, I think it's such a bold and angsty move for anyone to make on Facebook. There is no hiding de-friending someone. It's obvious and apparent how you feel about that person.
Remember my previous post Confessions? I have this strange need for everyone to like me. It's really hard for me to accept when I know that someone doesn't like me. I want to know why and what I can do to make it better immediately. That's why this bold de-friending move really hit me so hard. Why go so far as to de-friend me? Do you really not want to see my status updates, picture uploads and just my general activity on Facebook anymore? Ugh.....Whatever. I know that I just need to forget about it and move on. I have enough incredible people in life that want to be my Facebook friend! So there!