This week's Mama Kat's Writing Assignment that I chose was prompt #2 "What are your confessions?"Whew, here we go:
- I confess that I'm not as strong as most people think I am. Deep down, I feel weak and less sure of myself then perhaps I come across. I suppose I feel like I don't have a choice-it's either be the way I am or completely fall apart. Falling apart just doesn't sound like a viable option.
- I confess that I'm absolutely terrified of letting my parents, my sister and my friends down every single day.
- I confess that I don't think I've ever really been in love before. As a 26 year old this makes me very sad but hopeful at the same time.
- I confess that I expect a lot from people.
- I confess that some days I don't want to get out of bed in the morning. It's safe, warm and nothing bad can happen. I can dream of happier times.
- I confess that I still constantly worry about everything like I did when I was younger. I haven't grown out of that stage quite yet. Something tells me I never will.
- I confess that I truly just want to be liked by everyone. I can't stand knowing that someone doesn't like me or is mad at me for some reason. I know that's impossible for everyone to like me, but why not?
- I confess that lately I enjoy spending more time alone. Wonder what that means?
- I confess that I still really don't like running but I know that it's good for me so I keep doing it everyday. Let's call it my self-inflicted torture.
- I confess that sometimes, I still really just want to be a singer. Living in LA is kind of woken that dream up in me.
- I confess that since my parents died, I've thought about never getting married.
- I've also considered never having children because they aren't here for it.
- I confess that I know I'm going to do amazing things for the music industry, if only someone would give be a chance to show that.
- I confess that I never ever would have guessed that I would have enjoyed blogging as much as I do now. : )
I'm 26 too, life is certainly different for everyone. I don't think we will ever grow out of worrying about everything, and for us people pleaser this includes whether or not we are making others happy...
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These are some deep confessions. But you know, at 26 your life is really just beginning. I know you probably don't want to hear that right now. :) Best of luck to you, and I hope you find happiness with whatever path in life you choose.
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ReplyDeleteFirst of all thanks a million for pointing out there was no follow button on my blog -- that's definitely fixed now. :)
Secondly, I confess to feeling almost the exact same way on all those points, except the music industry and losing my parents. I am fortunate enough to still have both of mine around.
Thirdly (is that a word), I'm totally following you now. :)
Except, I'm a liar apparently, because your follow button isn't working either. :(
ReplyDeleteI could've posted some of these. Good luck with your plans in the music industry!
ReplyDeleteI can relate to many of your confessions, especially being terrified about letting your family and friends down.
ReplyDeleteMy confessions:
*I have a huge fear that I will never get married or have children
*I don't really like most of my friends
*I still wear a pair of underwear that I've had since 8th grade
*I used to have anxiety problems and get panic attacks every day
*I never thought that I would make so many great bloggy friends!
I love how personal your confessions were. It really gave me an insight into who your really are. I probably should confess numbers 1 and 7.
ReplyDeleteWell, you read my confessions already. I hear ya on many, many of yours. When I was 26 I never thought I would get married or have kids or a blog...it all changes. Enjoy it all and the excitement that comes from being in LA. You will and can do great things!
ReplyDeleteWhat a great list of confessions. I am very terrfied of letting people down as well and I am afraid I will never get married or have childen even though that is not what I want right now but someday I will. I also confess that I am scared of romantic relationships.
ReplyDeleteI like your confessions and you don't have to feel alone in never having loved anyone or never want to get married cause that is how I feel even though I have a boyfriend , but I wouldn't call it love. Anyhow if you like to sing and you have a talent for it why not make a youtube video . I can say that from reading just this little bit about you , I like you :) Awesome post .
ReplyDeleteHonesty at it's best. Good for you.
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